yesterday..ak trnampakla sbatang pkok yg agak tua...besar...sgt bsarrr..de nmpak sdey je..emmm...
suddenly,aku teringat peristiwa yg terjadi beberapa taun lepas ketika aku berada di rumahku di terengganu..
then the flashback started...

at that time,i was 15years old..
wandering around my house while cleaning d coarse grasses ...
all of a sudden,i was shocked while passing trough an old and big tree...
he looked so sad...
like he was about to die...
dat tree was a damn big tree and stored thousands of my childhood memories...
it used to be d spot where i played hide n seek,'teduduk',galah panjang',tarik pelepah pokok kelapa' and 'campak selipar' with my kampungboys....
sambil2,makcek2 kampungku akan duduk atas 'lambo' built under the tree...
di kala itu,anak2 muda kampungku juga duk bertenggek atas motor di tepi pokok itu sambil bersiul mengorat si anak dara...
we all love that tree...
precious...
so i was wondering why???????
why would such a precious tree be sad...

i asked him,
"dear tree...why would u be sad???long time ago,u looked so happy looking at our smiles while playing around u...but why would u cry now??"
he said,"im sad as my life would be ended in 24hours...org kampung are going to cut me down tomorrow..."
durgh why would they do so???i wondered....
"im old olredy...theres no more leaf on me...all i have is only dahan reput..mencacatkan pandangan...thats y they wanna cut me down.."he said.
"but u keep a lot of our memories...u see us grow up...we loved u long time ago...how would they have d heart to cut u down?",i asked...
"its life dude...someday,u will grow up and u will know d reason.."katenya lagi lam bahase omputih...mungkin die blaja bahase dengan penjajah inggeris kerana umornya sudah menjangkau 100tahun lebey ketika itu...thats mean,die telah wujud di zaman pemerintahan inggeris...

kini...aku telah dewasa...
a lot of things ive learned...
but just now i realize d meaning of his word...
why would people cut him down although he had a big impact to our life...
its d cruelty of the world...of the reality...but that is life...we have to accept it...
people only appreciate us when they need us...
when there is samting valuable on us in their eyes
but later when we have no more advantage to them,they will throw us out...
no matter how precious our contribution to em in d pass...
yeah,thats right...
they'd say,"why would keeping a dead tree...dahan reput...takde daun...rosakkan pemandangan je.."
cant u see???

everyday...
i see thousands of hypocritical faces around me...
smiling and laughing together with me...
without knowing what is in their head...
planning on taking me for granted...
or backstabbing me in any moment....
i wish life would be much better...
true friends of no hypocrite...
fuck em...

i dont want to be thrown out by my own friend...
its hurting even worse than being cut with a knife...
i dont want to live around a hypocritical human being...
its like swimming in a sea of ikan jerung and buaya....
but that is life...
there is nothing else can be done...
there is no way to run from em as they are everywhere...
all i can do is only 1 thing...
telan....